There are pictures of me at a very young age wearing a princess dress and proudly brandishing a plastic sword. Same goes for me dressed up as a cowboy and a Power Ranger. I've always had an active fantasy life--to a fault. If I was acting girly, I was going to kick some ass while I was doing it and be the hero, and if I was acting boysy--same thing.

I also pretended to be a mad scientist a lot. I had a crush on Bill Nye (Shut. The fuck up.) and dreamed about starting out as his lab assistant, and then surpassing him in Sheer Genius, taking over Nye Laboratories, and taking him as my bitch, winning him over with my unparalleled genius. I pretended to be James Bond's anthropomorphic cat-partner (yeah, you heard me, a black cat with neon green eyes named Neona) and going on secret missions with him as his brilliant protégé. I was obsessed with Goldeneye at the time, so I pretended Severnaya after the Goldeneye blast had become a haven for anthropomorphic cats effected by the "radiation" (I didn't understand EMI at the time, clearly) who lived in peace with the Siberian otters and squirrels (think Redwall, my other mad fantasy obsession). James Bond was taken captive by Alec Trevelyan (who had somehow survived) somewhere nearby in Siberia, where Neon, in search for him, had found her kin in Severnaya, and they busted James Bond and Moneypenny (who fell in love in jail) out Redwall-warrior style.

And that the tip of the iceberg for my childhood fantasy life.

Currently--I have a ton of fantasies I indulge in. If I'm in the middle of an RPG, it tends to be me as the glaive-toting intellectual Black Mage-figure, calm and collected and quirky, but gentle beneath the exterior, mysterious and seemingly omnipotent, in a sprawling and beautiful world where water defies gravity and lush forests mingle with cyberpunk-esque cities. I have found a soulmate the caliber I could only imagine--though my imaginings always incorporate a degree of realism, imperfection, which makes them all the more real and dear to me--and I still maintain my independence while knowing that person is always there for me. It's an Alucard-Integra sort of relationship, maybe. I've had my heart shattered twice, but I still believe it's possible to find that person. Utilizing my brilliance and ability to slip unnoticed through situations, like something otherworldly, I rescue that special person from certain peril, and we rest together somewhere warm and comfortable while it storms. And we talk until we have to continue venturing about life, the universe, and everything, with many a loving word thrown in and "intimate moment" in varying degrees of... intensity. And the perils we face make us realize how precious we are to one another. Sure, there may be issues with me being cold and distant and overly-intellectual, or visa-versa, but we work through them. I usually imagine a person who is more touchy-feely and emotional than I am, to balance out my personality. And, realistically, I have issues with insecurity, so I need somebody who is always telling me I am loved and showing that.

Or, I'm a psychic Pokemon trainer (STFU ) of the same personality and character-cut as above, going on similar adventures in the Pokemon world. There is more mature, darker danger afoot than featured in the show or the game (I mean, come on? "Team Meanie"? Do hardened badasses really talk like that?), and as a renegade intellectual loner used to keeping to herself, must aid in the saving of the Free World as we Know It. Nobody knows her nature--is she good? Or bad? But proves good and helpful beneath the exterior, yadda yadda, provides a lot of Bebop-esque insight the has provided on her travels throughout the world, and saves the world through technological prowess, yadda yadda. etc. You get the idea.

There are similar scenarios for being a Zaibach sorcerer (think Escaflowne and Folken ), a Duelist (of course), etc. Oddly I don't place myself in the X universe; I'm more likely to place myself in a character's skin (Seishirou, in other words). I could go on all day. And and you'll probably hit one. Female who disguises herself as a dashing young boy to study alchemy in a very Tamora Pierce-esque fashion, a sage a'la Shiek from Zelda, etc etc.

If I'm going to have my fantasy, I might as well jerk my ego off and be as badass as I wish I was in real life.

Giovanna wrote:

I must be broken. Stars, candles, and roses are all things that aren't romantic to me at all, but rather really cool stuff to enjoy whenever you have time or money.

Edit: Rain. I think, overall, rain is romantic to me.

It doesn't make you broken - it just makes you unique.  And you need someone adaptable.  My grrl really isn't into the candles and flowers bit, either, so I rarely ever use them.

As for rain... thunderstorms, baby.  Thunderstorms.  I'd love nothing more than to be wrapped up in my grrl underneatha tree while there's thunder in the disctance.  The rain is pouring down, plastering our clothes to each other, somehwat cold, but we never feel it as we're content to keep each other warm.

Man, so many people I'd like to quote! Too many, so I didn't

I think I only had one instance of a pretend-marriage when I was a little kid, and we made the cake out of snow and put Power Rangers on top. But I was the one who always climbed over the fence to see him.

Anyway, whenever we played house in school, I insisted on being an 80-year old grandmother who played baseball - EVERY TIME. I kid you not.

Oh, I just remembered a second instance of my young self and marriage - there was the time I expressed my desire (at maybe age five or six) to marry my best friend. She said we couldn't because we were both girls, and I told her we'd just go to Hawaii, because I somehow got the idea that that was legal there (I now know that its only 'domestic partnerships' and not marriage).

But I've never wanted to get pregnant and have a baby.

As for all the fantastical fantasies... well, I've always thought it would kick ass to be an anime character. Uh, but not in an anime like Beserk, that would kinda suck. And on one level, I'd like to be in Utena, but I would wanna be a duelist, not a regular student, - but on the other hand, I don't really want Akio trying to pick at my poor brain.

Sappy fantasy, huh...

I used to imagine me and some imaginary friends in a band and that we were famous u_u

>_> i used to imagine me as a prince.

And me with friends u_u

Ragnarok wrote:

Chrono Trigger was great, but overall I'd choose FFVI!

Also an excellent game, for different reasons.

Aww, yay!

My fantasy is walking in the rain without an umbrella or a coast, just walking and getting soaked
then him walking up to me and hugging my tightly


And maybe a quick kiss on the cheek?

I'm a freak...

A troubled person only my love can save!  ...sappy fantasy or a codependent nightmare.
I liked rescuing animals as a little kid, and now I like to rescue people. Both in daydreams, and in real life, I try to.   :considers going back to the animals:

I used to imagine Kurt Cobain (before death) & I, together, romantically, singing something equivalent to that Avril Lavine song "Skater Boy", but it was like, 'loser girl' version.



When I was little, my Barbie's would kiss right away, but would wait a long time to have sex. While, my playmates Barbie's would have sex right away, but also get married right away. My Barbie's never married, only lived together with dogs. I remember playing out long, dramatic, soap-opera-esque scenes with those dolls, twin sisters with shakey home-circumstances, meeting twin Ken dolls, and escaping the life of domestic drama for a house in the hills with the stuffed animals.

I've wanted to live IN, almost every book...with the exception of the few true crime novels I've read.

Frosty wrote:

When I was little, my Barbie's would kiss right away, but would wait a long time to have sex. While, my playmates Barbie's would have sex right away, but also get married right away. My Barbie's never married, only lived together with dogs. I remember playing out long, dramatic, soap-opera-esque scenes with those dolls, twin sisters with shakey home-circumstances, meeting twin Ken dolls, and escaping the life of domestic drama for a house in the hills with the stuffed animals.

Wow. There are a lot of people on this board that make me wonder HOW ON EARTH someone else had THE EXACT SAME childhood as me.

Mine used to have such soap opera lives. But I only had one Ken doll, so he got a metric ton of little plastic Barbie ass. They got driven off cliffs all the time. And brought back to life all the time. I had an early fascination with both witchcraft and science fiction.

But Hya, dear, if they don't change postion, you're pretty lacking on the IFD content, and we just can't allow that. For, y'know. Your own good. We'd have to buy you one of those sex swings you hang from the ceiling.

hyacinth_black wrote:

I always wanted one of those... and not just for sex! I WANNA SWING IN MAH ROOMM!!!

My coworkers were just discussing how awesome sex swings are.

Also...am I the only person that played with K-Nex? Screw Barbie dolls. You couldn't get me away from my K-Nex.

I wish I had some right now.

Hinotori wrote:

BEST BARBIE STORY EVER

Love it!
I'm remembering my "non-name-brand" Barbies, which usually were sectioned off as the bad step-mothers.

I did not have K-nex, but I did play with legos far longer than other children my age... And, anyone old enough to remember LITE BRIGHT!!!!! Oh the glorious toy.

I played with my brother's toy cars all the time. And my Barbies were active participants in the French Revolution extremely often.

I was also a child whose favorite show was Yen Can Cook, so god knows I was a strange child.